Monday and Tuesday were kind of tough with Mom. She was snarky to me. I had fixed oatmeal for breakfast and when giving her her medication which I always hand to her in a little bowl, she takes them and swallows them with her apple juice. Monday I turned around and she put them in her oatmeal and was chewing them so I was very nice and said, ” mama let me give you  new medication, it’s important that you don’t chew them, that you swallow them whole.” She , ” I always chew them” and I said very nicely, ” well it’s better if you swallow them whole because they are time released.” I did fish out the pills from her oatmeal and gave her a new set of medication of the ones she had not already taken. She proceeded to take one at a time tilting her head back gargling after each one, coughing after each one, and making a big show of them getting stuck in her throat. Much like a 4-year-old who isn’t getting their way. The rest of the day she was pretty aloof with me.

Tuesday she was a little better. Wednesday we went to Next Door Clubhouse and she spent the day. She appeared to have a good day was very tired when she got home. And kept saying. ” I had a good time but I remember that I kept saying I wanted to leave. “

Ben was moved to a rehab facility this week. She called over and over and over trying to get him. His phone as usual is turned off. Yesterday, Friday, he answered and they spoke for a while. A couple times this week she spoke to Happy, Ben’s daughter. And then immediately would leave her a voicemail. And became very upset with herself because she couldn’t remember what she was doing. We wrote all that down.

She’s really having difficulty holding on to anything more than a few seconds at a time and it is constant reminding. I don’t remind her of anything unless she seems as though she really wants to get it straightened out.

Back to Wednesday, after I reviewed my day and her aloofness to me, I realized over the weekend I had mentally, “checked out”
It is really hard to always have a lilt in my voice and act like everything is hunky-dory. And this past weekend I was just plain tired. So my voice was normal. And I spent a lot of time sitting with her, however I was on my tablet. I believe that because I was not interacting with her 100% one-on-one, she separated from me. So, Thursday and Friday I spent the entire day as I have the last few months 100% engaged. She is much much better. So, I realize that in order for her to trust me, want to be with me, laugh, and do what I ask, I need to be 100% engaged all the time.