Well today was a tough day for me and mom. Today’s Wednesday and she was to go to next door for the day so I could have some time. But they were closed for juneteenth. I miss the memo. Then called about 20 after 9:00 and still on the phone with her at a quarter to 10:00. They hung up and I told her we were going to go over to next door and she said she didn’t want to go. I knew she didn’t want to go. I told her that it was really good for her to go that it helps with her memory and she needs to interact with other people. She claimed up her first to go! So I called Ben I told him what I was trying to do and would he please tell her he thinks it’s a good idea. He did great! I was so pleased! It was so helpful. But we got in the car and all the way over she had her fist clenched and she was like I don’t want to do this I don’t want to do this. Then, we get there and they aren’t opened. Nobody told me when I picked her up last week they weren’t going to be opened. What I hate about that was the stress it caused he. And I needed the day. I didn’t even realize I had an expectation but it really threw me for loop.

We came back and went out on the porch and she Drew oh I forgot this past Saturday they started tearing out the tub in the downstairs bathroom to make it a walk-in shower for her. And she really struggled with that Saturday Sunday Monday yesterday was better. We got back today and she kept going in there. And I’m not in a good mood today. But I got through it. Went upstairs several times to work but had to come back down because she was moving around and we can’t leave her alone

About 5:00 I was rushing trying to get some work done and my husband came in the bedroom and said I just have one more thing to do and I lost it I just lost it I started crying and was like just get out. I need to work. Well he got out and he came downstairs and I was able to get a little work done. He also fixed dinner which was huge help. Tonight I walked the dog to get out of the house and had about 30 minutes of meditation while I was walking. I came back in a better frame of mind.
But I took from today? Keep your expectations low. I know I know, things don’t always work out the way we plan.