Busy busy busy. I have had not the time or energy to write this month. I’ve been doing a lot of Drs. appointment . Mom has had dentist appt, eye appointment, dermatology appt, had some cancer removed from her back with a large incision, . Also her back is killing her so we had an MRI and the spine specialist thinks he can help her with a procedure where he burn some nerves that are being pushed by arthritis she has in her back. Her knees are so weak because her back has been hurting her. I’ve been able to get her to exercise, but it is not for long. Anyway, I FINALLY was given a few hours to get my job at CHP caught up.
I’ve turned in my notice at my job. I really hate retiring but I can’t do that and care for mom. I have actually given up everything outside. I was Worship Chairperson at church, I was DCM for our district in AA and I am retiring from my job. I’ve changed all my AA meeting around and have quite nicotine? Geesh a lot of letting go!! I mention the nicotine because I am sure it is affecting how I respond around here. I am irritable, restless and discontent. I have 53 days so far! A miracle in itself. I have never been free for that long in my life, except when pregnant.
Getting back to mom. She is so kind. I feel truly blessed that she is a loving person right now and I hope she stays this way. She is going to go stay with Karen in October, hopefully until the new year. That will give me a break I need. Ben agreed and Karen has the tickets. So there you go! Mom and I have been walking a bit. Had Hurricane Helene come through and today had a tree fall on Emily’s house. Dale was over there all day working on that and just got back. I did not handle that stress well. Mom was concerned all day. Several times I tried to just “be” with her and I am sure I feel short. Oh well./
Tomorrow is another day.